Omen

It's almost like I'm drowning
Only water wouldn't be so crude
Gasping for air I reach up
I reach out
No one's there

She wanted me for my money
He wanted me for my fame
They liked when I made music
They don't even know my name

It's almost like hanging
But the swing is just a thud
No branching to give
I find myself
Alone

When I had no more to spend
When I had no more fans
When my voice cracked
When my heart broke

I stood in the midst of war
I watched bullets whiz by my head
I tried to fight 
But weak I am
I stood alone
I died. 

First Time

Her eyes opened for the first time today
Momma's little baby bundle of joy
Toothless smiles and gurgles of praise
Reaching for a toy

She walked away for the first time today
tomorrow maybe she'll speak
In tongues or perhaps biting her own
She'll be witty, tongue-in-cheek

She loved for the first time today
her eyes a diamond sky
she smiled and laughed abundantly
And when he left she'd cry

She forgave for the first time today
Her healing has begun
She prayed and sat patiently
Her faith she placed in the Son

She opened her eyes for the first time today
She sees what she's purposed for
To bring lost souls who've wandered far
Back to the Father's door

She whispers softly her testimony
A sentiment to everyone
"You can do something one thousand times
 And you'll never forget number one."

Flow

Your words flow through me like ink flows through my pen

I wish I could ready my mind

It's not until I feel myself ready to doubt

I open my mouth ready to shout

And all the proof I need comes pouring out

For Example: 

If I walk I might get left 

And if run I might grow tired

But your prophet has already told me

That with patience this will pass. 

So I call on you to carry me

If you don't this life will bury me

No one is going to marry me

And that's not even necessary see

You called me by name first 

To carry out your mission

From death you've already risen

And by this we have won

The battle is already done

And if I keep you as number one

My story will have just begun

Your words flow through me like cheese through a grinder

In the recesses of my mind a constant reminder

I am not alone in misery

I am on the winning team

God will have the victory!

He will save lil' ol' me!

I Called It

Something  told me not to believe you but I did
The emotional scars were healing over time
The sorrow went away with every sip of that wine
Years went by and my tears slowly faded
Truth be told I was forced to heal
You took my heart and  raped it
Why did I ever love you
I dont get it
You came to me crawling and pleading
Baby I miss you, we can still make this a we thing
We can still be happy and we can still build a life together
See you came to me when I was least expected
Given the feelings that I was forced to bury
I dug them up just for you
I still had an ounce of love in my heart just for you
But you buried me 6 ft deeper in my emotinal coffin
The day that i accepted that last phone call
That phone call that told me you reniged
I put my cards up all trust thinking I had won all bets in
But as I slowly realized it was all just a poke
I saw that you made your decision a long time ago
The smiles of hope I had for us
Have now turned into tears
more like evaporated dust
Because I refuse to drown myself in what I thought was my all
I refuse to allow myself to fall...again
I dont know what I ever held on to
I dont know why I let myself get this way over you
I wasn't your option to begin with
But I took a chance on what I thought was a recharge
My battery was full, ready to restart
But now my warranty is up
No extension garaunteed
We are over indefinitely.

Bluff

I had a million smiles and I gave them all to you
You deserved them
One by one I dealt them
Like cards in poker no bluffing

Smiles regenerate
So I stayed full for you

I had a million smiles and I gave them all to you
I didn't wait or play a role
I didn't hesitate
Cards up all trust

Pouring out my joy
Into you

I have a million smiles and I will give them all to you
I don't know what you're thinking
Or whether you'll renig
And the that is the chance I take

Playing with you
This is high stakes

Win or Lose
I'm, all in
What you'll see is smiles
From ear to ear

My million smiles
Come with a million tears.

Reignited

Fires burn hotter when the lights go out,
The world is still and silence shouts
It's deafening

The first spark was an accident
We weren't prepared when the fire was lit
We fueled it with all we had

As the flame withered I watched it die
Praying that I could keep it alive
It fizzled out

A trail of smoke and glowing embers
I all but lost hope, until I remembered
Fires can be rekindled

The strike of match or a conversation
The flash of a flame sparks imagination
And we're hot all over again

Shelter it from the rain cloud
Turn off the lights and think out loud
The flame will light the way

-T. Geyton

Possibility

Its funny I thought about him as I woke up this morning
The phone dings in my dream I have a text message
Its him wishing me a good day
I reply and hope for the same
Why is this all coming back
He's changing the way I act
Smiling through texting, this is weird
Those butterflies travel when his voice is what I hear
Clear
like the rain on the window pane
I see him
His spirit is so close I can reach him
Anxiously awaiting the day of our first date
What sparks will fly?
What flames will burn?
When all is rekindled
I can see it now... All heads will turn!