We wait...

How do I tackle this game we play

We toss and turn

Dodge the bullets

But fein to burn.

We know how to defense

But no offense 

we leave astray

It's the picture we love to draw

Color blank

Open to ideas and advice

We don't want to hear

We listen but don't comprehend

So we use this pen for comfort

Lay out our dreams to be real

Because reality is what we feel

We wait 

Until that time comes

When we can say

This is our last first date.

Fight or Flight

You got me split,
Same dance
Different circumstance

Simultaneously,
Flying and Falling
Rushing and Stalling
Running and Crawling
Is this really our Calling?

Searching for what we both know
Does not exist
Idle scavenges create
Agonizing Bliss

A tangle, twisted up
Too tight
I walk the balance beam
Fight or Flight

Sun rise
Blinds my eyes, I
Smile and Cry

I live here
In the middle
Of Up and Down
Smile and Frown
Silence and Sound

So I Write
Left and Right
Dark and Light
I walk the balance beam
Fight or Flight

Her Cry For Help

He told me she would be ok
He said he wouldnt shoot her
She is my sister sir, please don't hurt her
Crying with fear in my eyes
I sniffled as he didn't care
Trembling and shaking
My heart grew with scare
He pointed the gun at her so angry
What could she have done that made him so mad?
I tried to talk to her thru our eyes
But the language stayed blank
All I could read was HELP ME in her eyes
But there was nothing I could do
I was tied up to a chair with rope around my hands too
He shot in the air
SHUT UP!
The air filled with our tears
He grew more angry at the sight of us
We looked pitiful in his eyes
His partner prompts "just shoot her already"
And so he did
He shot my sister right here
If I had known
How to stop the bullet
She would still be here.

If I Had Known

If I had known
I wouldn't have driven that road
If I had known
I wouldn't have dared go home

It was a flash of light before my eyes
Someone else had already died
I was not about to be that, was I

Barrels pointed through glass windows
Diamond my only protection
I closed my eyes
I had no weapons

My hands went up
The same surrender I submit
When in the throws of worship
I cried
This is how
My brothers and sisters all died

I cried Oh God!
And through the prism
Of unfallen tears
I studied his face

Pale with a frown like I was scum
Like he hated me
That's how he held his gun

Unflinching and unmoved
I met his eyes with mine
I sniffled as I cried
I closed my eyes

I've never felt life
like I felt that night!
I'd feel something
If I had known